Rasalom
16-08-2007, 06:14 AM
Hm, I've always heard older people talking about how they thought they were invincible when they were younger & I never really paid them any heed, I always thought they were just cracked or something, everyone knows they'll die someday, what I never realized was they werent thinking they'd never die, just that they wouldn't die right then, even if they did stupid things.
The other day I set into motion some events that may or may not lead directly to my death somewhere in the near future. When I discovered what I may have done, I quite literally shrugged & said to myself "I'll be fine". My nonchalance & sureness that I would be fine surprised me, I knew in the back of my mind that I could die, but for some reason I consceously told myself I wouldn't.
I always thought I was smart enough to know that I could die in a certian situation when it happened, but I was wrong, which surprised me. I see other people making that mistake all of the time, kids doing stupid stunts, people drunk driving, etc. surely these people know in the back of their minds that they could kill themselves, but they must say to themselves "It won't happen to me, I'll be fine". Due to recent events I now find the mental states of such people interesting.
I always thought that if someone knew/thought/was pretty sure they'd die they would want to go out & make the most of their lives, go places they never thought they'd go, do interesting things, take out loans they'll never be able to pay off, after all, that's what they do in the movies isn't it? Instead I'm going to work, getting on the computer, doing normal things, things I always do, not interesting things or anything like that.
[Random aimless musing/]
The other day I set into motion some events that may or may not lead directly to my death somewhere in the near future. When I discovered what I may have done, I quite literally shrugged & said to myself "I'll be fine". My nonchalance & sureness that I would be fine surprised me, I knew in the back of my mind that I could die, but for some reason I consceously told myself I wouldn't.
I always thought I was smart enough to know that I could die in a certian situation when it happened, but I was wrong, which surprised me. I see other people making that mistake all of the time, kids doing stupid stunts, people drunk driving, etc. surely these people know in the back of their minds that they could kill themselves, but they must say to themselves "It won't happen to me, I'll be fine". Due to recent events I now find the mental states of such people interesting.
I always thought that if someone knew/thought/was pretty sure they'd die they would want to go out & make the most of their lives, go places they never thought they'd go, do interesting things, take out loans they'll never be able to pay off, after all, that's what they do in the movies isn't it? Instead I'm going to work, getting on the computer, doing normal things, things I always do, not interesting things or anything like that.
[Random aimless musing/]